TO FEEL MORE….

Oh how  i would love
Love to feel
To feel more
More than just
Rage and sadness
I want to feel more..
More than guilt and frustration…

I want to feel more..
Like I used to
I want to feel the rain
Feel the raindrops on my skin
Want to feel
The pathway they make lingering down …
Want to feel the thunder around me…
I want to feel more
Feel more than just the noise of the storm…

I want to feel the wind ..
The wind on my face..
Want to hear the whispers in my ears..
I want to to feel more..
Feel more than just the whistling of the windows…

I want to feel more..
Feel the music
Like I used to feel..
I Want  every note to move my being
Every beat to give me chills
I want my heart to drown
Drown in the sound of the rhythm
And my soul to get lost in emotions
Just like it used to…

I want to feel more..
More than the rage I feel
For watching the wrongs around me
More than the clenching of fists
Biting the lips…

I want to feel more
More than the guilt I feel
for being happy for yourself..
For showing that my life is miserable
Even when its not..

I want to feel more
More than the sadness I feel
For the mundane things around
Like my feelings don’t matter..

I want to feel more
More than the frustration I feel
For crying out loud for justice..
For standing up for myself and being judged for it….

I want to feel more
Feel more than what I feel now…
Oh how  i would love
Love to feel
Love to feel more….